My First Meditation

This is my first formal meditation. I have participated in some informal meditations while in drama classes, religions class and yoga, however, sometimes I do not use it as a mindfulness activity. In these cases I was using it for some other means such as prayer, preparing before a show and relaxation, and I didn’t follow the lead of the person leading the meditation. But this time was different. I consciously made the decision to listen and partake in the steps into this mindfulness meditation.

So officially this was my first time in sitted guided meditation. And how did it go? How did it feel?

It felt uncomfortable. I tried to sit in the with my feet firmly planted on the ground and back straight. Well I never sit this way and I find it quiet uncomfortable on my back, so I found I missed some of the meditation because I was too focused on the way I was sitting. It was only when I focused just on my breath that I was able to ignore and overcome this pain and anxiety. When we spoke as a group it became clear to me that this is a good thing to have learned this far. I need to focus on my breath and when I do that, then I can shut off my hyperover drive mind and focus on the guided meditation. As well, in the big group Chris mentioned that it was ok when our mind slipped as long as we tried to call it back to his voice. I thought this was great because it didn't make me feel silly or bad at meditation. This is something I need to remember to say if I am ever leading a meditation

In the future I hope to try and move more, cross my legs or a comfy couch may allow me to fall into the meditation easier.